Where is This crazy Lady Gone?

Crazy is right, it has been far to long. I have been under the weather with a baby growing inside me.
I am so gratefull for the blessing of having the lord intrust me with another beautiful child. if you are close to me you know how hard it is for me to carry a baby but i am trying really hard to learn the lessons that the lord has for me to learn throughout  this time in my life.
I am still Living the Life!
Love

He will try to Destroy you.

I will not give him Credit, nope I wont he is the guy that went the other way in heaven, you know who I am talking about.


With that being said, yes it is an odd way to start a post! Today at church we were talking about ways that we are not connected to the Lord and I found it sad that I did not realize that I had I had been under his influence so to speak, Ways that the advisary can tear you down are simple and subtle and small, but never the less they are there.
I have been really angry lately at alot of things as well as at myself, I have no idea when i started to Hate myself so much. Until today, Ahhhhhhhhhhh moment seriously there is no reason to hate on me but slowly "He" has convinced me that i am worthless ect!
I remember this that I read once along time ago when I had more "me" time i would like to share it with you.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

I don't know when i stopped believing this but I did, But it is over I am WOMAN! WO     MAN!

Share | Phenomenal Woman PHENOMENAL WOMAN by Maya Angelou Pretty women wonder where my secret lies I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size But when I start to tell them They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes And the flash of my teeth, The swing of my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them, They say they still can't see. I say It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed. I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud. When you see me passing It ought to make you proud. I say, It's in the click of my heels, The bend of my hair, The palm of my hand, The need of my care, 'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me.

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So needless to say but Ah ha!
I am awake, watch out world cause Tash is Back!

I wonder who is Still here?

So it has been way way to long! I know I do however wonder who is here, is anyone checking in on me? I Wonder SO let me tell you a little update.

Life is grand right now, grand!
I am currently in Love with my Husband ( I don't see that ever changing!)
I am also in love with My kids they get funnier and funnier every day

I am also in love with my Friends and Family!
Life is Great! 

Seriously!

So My brother in Law david sent me an email that said I was lame, casue I never post.
Point taken and agreed apon.
So here I am posting about my life.
So the drama never seems to stop around the parts of my life so I have stopped it. People would be suprised by the acations that i have taken, but never the less done and done.
So I have to ask my self what have i learned from this situation.
Sadly I am not on the "other side" where it is all sunshine and butterflies.
I have however learned that you are lucky in life and Blessed if you can have 1 girlfriend.
I am so luck because the girls that are my true friends have stuck by me and have been there for me, the ones who are not have showen theire true colour, and ladies it does not look good on you.
I have always been a straight shooter and direct and to the point, what you see is ehat you are going to get.

SO OVER IT!



As for Real life this week has been extremely fun.
My Hunky Hubby has outdone him self for yet another day,
He knows that i have never really loved my minni van, I know that some moms love them but that girl was never me and we only have 2 kids so why do i have one.................cause kids have so much crap!
But this girl nolonger has a Van!
My hubby got me a FLEX!
What a man, what a man what a mighty good man! now sing it again!What a man, what a man what a mighty good man! Yes HE is ( for anyone who remembers envouge)
Spoiled Rotten! I know . But seriously great Mothers day gift.
Well other than that.
My son Kingston started to walk and then stopped agian, he can do it he just thinks that crawling is so much faster, oh i love him!
Miss Mya has gotten funnier by the day, she is so excited to start preschool in the fall and that is all that this little girl can talk about.

Love

My Life

WHERE HAVE I BEEN?

Well the truth of the matter is I am at home.
I am tired, for the last couple of weeks i have been busy lots......... all social and stuff.(who am I)
It has been so much fun, but I have lost me, I have started to care so much about what others think of me and who should NOT be left out, that all the sudden I have invited 20 couples over for dinner.
I love to have people around me do not get me wrong.
But right now I think that I need to scale back on things, I need to workout and play with my kiddies and do crafts and sew! Cause I love all of that stuff I just have not had enough time the last couple of weeks.
I am going back to basics.
Me!
Love
N

HOLLA!

So it has been a while, to say the least.
There has been a little bit of life going on.
Go figure.
So lets recap on my exciting life shall we............
So I have found amazing amazing friends here in lethbridge. I have hallways been one that was blessed with having great friends I am really lucky i guess.
So what does that have to do with anything?
Well the last couple of weeks I have needed them.
And they have been there! I love you girls!
Other things that have happened are Kingston is not walking not one bit.
i caught him the other day standing and he quickly threw him self down i think that he was playing me. I think he can walk and one day he will just get up and go.
No hurry that just means that I have to run in two different directions!
Also I have bought an amazing stroller! Amazing! i know a stroller you say what can be so amazing about it..............well drive it i say I dare not tell you what kind of stroller(fear of judgment) but i did sacrifice for it, and i make no apologizes.............except to my husband, who so willing agreed that it was a good buy.
Anyways life is great! GREAT I say GREAT!
love

HOME

I am so glad that I am home!
I did have a BLAST with my handsome husband.
I did miss my kids so much!(now that i am home i could use a break!)
My son now thinks any time that i leave the house that he is going to see me in a week, so i now have a babe hooked on to my hip! I love it, Mya is a Mess she is crying all the time, cause she just needs her Mom!
Fun times and i can not wait to go away again.
Next trip is Seattle with the kids! It should be fun!
We love Seattle and can not wait to take the kids!
any one wanna come.................